I have been, incredibly irritable for the last two weeks. Every time my wonderful husband tries to talk to me, I want to scream : "Shut The Fuck Up! Leave Me The Hell Alone!!". Even his asking me if I want a cup of coffee, in the morning,, is causing me to feel hostile.
As time goes on, I realize, that I have a nasty cold virus. I am battling it, as best that I can, but still, I feel miserably ill. My sinuses are leaking like crazy. My chest is uncomfortable. I could use some cough syrup, with codeine in it.
It seems that every time I become physically ill, I become mentally ill. Usually, I feel deep depression, and horrible anxiety, when I am physically ill.
It makes sense. My body, can only handle so much, before it breaks down. But still I feel frustated, aggravated, basically, a mess.
It is hard to explain this, to my friends. For most of my friends, Nyquil, will save them from their colds. For me...I worry about my life. Like, can I survive this?
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