I was hospitalized, for the third time this year, just 2 weeks ago. My second kidney infection in 4 months. My physician is not happy. I can only say, that, I am so happy to be alive. In December, 2017, I developed Pneumonia. In January, 2018, I developed Diabetic Ketoacidosis, in July 2018, I developed a Kidney Infection, and in November 2018, another Kidney Infection. All of these times, I was so physically sick, that I felt like I was dying.
It has been such a difficult year. At times, I feel so grateful to have survived these illnesses, but at times, I am so damn depressed, so sad, so scared.
The depression, anxiety, hallucinations, and physical illnesses have done a real number on my soul. I often feel like I am fading away. And my wonderful husband has to live with these situations.
To all of my friends, who suffer from mental illness, I know that you know where I am coming from. You are all in my prayers.
