I thought that I would give an update of my status at this present time.  I think that overall, for me, I am doing pretty damn good!  Parts of this summer were very hard because I had days where I had flashbacks, bad memories, and even auditory hallucinations.  But  I have been able to cope with these things very well.  Yes, I cried, at times, but I did not want to die.  I'd get knocked down, but I'd get up amazingly well.  It has been this way since I got out of the hospital, in January.  Before, in my life, I would fall apart over every upset, and not know how to put myself back together.  Now I have been granted some type of power, it feels like, a power of great strength.  And I realize that I have been given a blessing, that I will forever treasure.
     It took decades to reach this point, 26 years of counseling, 26 years at different medication attempts, a year of Electro-Convulsive Therapy, numerous hospitalizations, and the prayers and love of many wonderful people.  I'm not saying that I will ever be cured, but I came to a revelation that life is good and I must really try to live it to it's fullest.
     I want to thank the people that love me, and thank God, for giving me strength to persevere.  Nothing I say, will ever be able to thank them enough.