It has been  weeks and weeks since my last blog entry.  My entries have been slowing down as my life triumphantly improves.  I'm still not sure how I feel about this.  I'd like to have the motivation to write more often, but I'm unsure what to write about, now that I am not writing about my inner pain.  I could start to write more about happiness, I suppose, but it's all so new to me.  I'm still not quite sure what to say.
    I am enjoying my happy life, but I'm afraid that it will disappear.  Let's face it, Schizoaffective Disorder is chronic and my chances of relapsing are very high. But I'm trying to stay positive.              
   Of course, there were times in the past when I felt happy, but these times were short-lived in comparison to now.  My present condition of happiness has been coasting along for quite a few months now.  No, these precious months have not been perfect, there were traumas and trials during them. But I survived them, without wanting to give up on life and bounced back.
    I have prayed and prayed to our sweet Lord, for a happy existence like this.  But I never dreamed that it would ever really happen.  It was, however, like climbing a huge mountain.  I had to work hard for decades through medication changes, psychotherapy, support groups, hospitalizations, and evicting unhealthy relationships with friends and family members from my life.           
     I was also extremely blessed to have some family and friends pray for me during my last serious bout of Depression.  I really believe that their prayers had an effect on me.
     There are presently, no adequate words to describe my thankfulness for this feeling within me. I must learn to fully embrace it and not fear my future.
     I will try to give more frequent updates in the future for those who read my blog.  If there is a topic that you would like me to discuss, please feel free to leave comments.  In the meantime, I will continue joyously coasting along in happiness.