It is late at night, as I write this blog, and the sounds of The Rolling Stones, on my stereo, are attempting to drown out, the sounds of the rain, thunder and lightening, outside of my open window.  It's a little frightening, as the lightening has struck close to our house, this evening.  But late night, like early morning, can have a real peacefulness to it.  And peace and being alone, are what it takes, for me to be able to write.  Not to mention, good music playing, lol.
     I am doing relatively well.  My Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, tends act up on a regular basis though, through flashbacks, nightmares and emerging memories.  I developed PTSD from childhood and  also domestic abuse.  I don't know if this will be a life-long problem for me.  I expect, that over time I will continue to learn newer and better ways of coping with it, which will improve my life.
     My Schizoaffective Disorder, which is a Mental Illness, has been behaving well, these days...Thank You, Lord!!  About a month ago, my psychiatrist, took me off of Risperdol, which is an antipsychotic medication.  Since then, I would describe myself as a little more feistier.  I have not felt emotionally depressed in months.  I had some auditory hallucinations a few weeks ago, when I was feeling sick and weak, with a bad cold, but they have not since resurfaced.  I have been enjoying working part-time, at the supermarket, and doing volunteer work at my church, both of which I would dread doing, if I were severely depressed.
     Physically, I'm doing better, than I was doing a few weeks ago.  Peri-menopause, had been giving me wicked hot flashes, and night sweats.  My psychiatrist prescribed me Neurontin, which is actually an anti-seizure drug, but it helps with hot flashes, night sweats, anxiety, etc.  So, my hot flashes and night sweats are less intense, now.  But, I am still not sleeping well, I toss & turn all night long.  I get good sleep, for about a half hour before my alarm clock goes off, lol.  And I'm still not eating a lot.  My appetite is rare now, I have no desire to eat,  The good news about this however, is that I have lost 6 pounds, at least.  My pants are getting too big!
      Well, it is now after midnight.  My cat has gone to bed with my husband, and I can hear my husband snoring from all the way upstairs.  I should go to bed, but the truth is, I love writing this blog, it has been so therapeutic for me.  I also, love knowing, that somebody, somewhere may read this blog someday, and find some comfort in knowing, that they too, are not alone battling PTSD or mental illness.  Please share my blog with other friends, and let it continue to travel around Mother Earth, to reach every person in need.  
Thank You & God Bless You!!